It begins with a dark glowing ember,
something black burning it's way out of me.
Searing the flesh,
pain is the only thing I feel,
scars all I see.
Oh no the fire's burning my insides again,
what can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Face consumer reason leaving all the ashes there,
you won't catch me regretting my decision,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear (what I want to hear),
I can't just close my eyes.
I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
but I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.
That is how i chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the blast, it often shakes me to the floor
(to the floor)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight.
And after this I feel as empty as the night before,
feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more.
Masochistic, nihilistic, gurging wrecked up thoughts
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it.
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)
I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
but I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.
Calling, calling out.
The darkness reaches up my soul,
I'm riddled with self-doubt.
Crawling, crawling out,
my will to fight will more than suffice,
while others will lay down.
It's only as dark as you make it.
Taken from AlbumSongAndLyrics.comI know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
but I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.